
Can one escape from the loneliness of being alive, or is melancholy longing an unavoidable companion of existence? Two very different women attempt to answer this question, perhaps unknowingly, in the debut feature from Umi Ishihara, The Garden Apartment (ガーデンアパート). Love becomes a destructive force which binds them both in different ways in its elusive yet unattainable allure, yet if escape exists perhaps it lies in acceptance of emotion’s transience rather in the permanence of a single moment of connection.
Our heroine, Hikari, is a young woman at a crossroads. She’s been living with her boyfriend Taro for some time and has recently discovered that she is expecting their child. However, the couple are also struggling in a still stagnant economy. Taro is currently unemployed and, from Hikari’s point of view at least, not trying hard enough to find a stable job of the kind he will need to become a responsible father. Taro, however, does not seem worried because he’s long become used to relying on the financial assistance of his eccentric aunt, Kyoko. Kyoko married a wealthy man who sadly passed away at a young age, leaving her rich but sad and with no children of her own. Ashamed of himself and embarrassed by his aunt’s lifestyle, he’d not planned on introducing her to the mother of his unborn child but ends up doing so when she unexpectedly accosts them in a coffee shop. Things take a turn for the strange when Kyoko decides to invite Hikari to her home where she hosts “parties” for young women who want to have fun together in a safe space.
Kyoko’s entire existence is founded on the idea of retreat, a way of living in an imagined past where she is in no pain. Her hedonistic household is filled with youngsters in a similar position all looking simultaneously for escape and for a place to belong. Kyoko drinks, so she says, not to forget but to remember, as a means of slowing down time. She wants to live inside love in memory of her late husband whose loss she cannot overcome and whose presence she feels to be slipping away from her. Sure that no one would ever love her, she clings to the last vestiges of a long absent love rather than submit herself to the loneliness of her later life.
Nevertheless, the kind of parties Kyoko throws are the kind which only make you remember just how lonely you really are. Hikari, fed up with Taro’s vacillations, arrives at Kyoko’s only to abscond with her only male guest, Sekai, for an unfulfilling late night adventure. Hikari was seeking escape through love, but discovered that love was a finite thing which must eventually run its course. Nevertheless, she appears to have taken little pleasure in it and has come to the conclusion that desire only breeds pain. Love didn’t save her, it only brought her fear and a desire for solitude.
Meanwhile, Taro tries to retrieve his love from Kyoko’s world only to discover she has chosen her own path, drifted away from him and the life he assumed they were building together. He attacks Kyoko for her lovelorn eccentricity, her jealously, and her need for affection in her treatment of him as a surrogate son (a role now seemingly ambiguously played by Sekai who seems to be just as conflicted as the increasingly petulant Taro) but has little real intention of assuming his responsibilities as an expectant father.
Kyoko seeks escape through growing herself in nostalgia and the false friendships of disenfranchised youth while Hikari becomes intent on moving forward in an acknowledgment of life’s despair rather than intent on fighting it. Love may be a temporary illusion trailing a wake of self-destruction but there’s something to be said for knowing when it’s time to wake up. Ishihara frames her tale in the mundanity of an ordinary struggling existence alternating with the melancholy neons of Kyoko’s world of night peopled by fugitives like herself looking for an escape from life’s suffering but finding themselves imprisoned all the same. There may be no salve for sadness, but a life must run its course and, in the end, we are all alone.
