What Happened to the Wolf? (Na Gyi, 2021)

Two terminally ill women slowly fall in love while circling the spectre of death in Na Gyi’s poignant queer romance, What Happened to the Wolf?. Homosexual activity is currently illegal in Myanmar and carries a 20-year prison term. The situation has only declined since the military coup which occurred in 2021. Director Na Gyi has since gone into exile along with his wife, actress Paing Phyo Thu, while her co-star Eaindra Kyaw Zin was herself arrested for protesting against the junta.

Given these conditions, the film may seem in a way coy or perhaps oblique but is also filled with a sense of melancholy longing that culminates in a well earned moment of emotional serenity. As the husband of heroine later suggests, they’ve been unhappy for a long time and only now that she’s been diagnosed with terminal lung cancer and been given only a year at most to live does Myint Myat (Eaindra Kyaw Zin) begin to reflect on her life and regret its missed opportunities. The film opens with her attempting to take her own life, explaining that she did not want to be waiting around to die though has a few “things to take care of” that made her reconsider her decision. 

It’s in the hospital that she first encounters Way Way (Paing Phyo Thu), a rebellious young woman born with a hole in her heart who has had quite a tragic life but seems to Myint Myat to have come to an accommodation with the proximity of death. As she later begins to realise, Way Way’s vivacity is also an act of self-delusion to mask her fear of mortality but nevertheless her lust for life begins to reawaken something in Mying Myat who is beginning to wonder what her life which has largely been defined by ideas of conventional success has really been for. 

When she laments that she was raised with a “proper system”, it reads both as a mild rebuke against an authoritarian culture and a frustration directed at her own internalised repression. Na Gyi’s camera often shoots with lingering desire, a close up on Way Way’s neck pregnant with longing as a conflicted Mying Myat considers reaching out but cannot bring herself to do so. As she reveals to Way Way, she never saw the point in dancing only for the younger woman to try to teach her how which is really a way of trying to show her how to live. 

But Way Way also has her own troubles which have led her to push people away so they wouldn’t miss her when she’s gone, though most of all what she fears is being left behind alone. She rejects her brother out of a mix of guilt and love in feeling unworthy that he gave up his artistic desires of becoming a photographer to become a doctor in order to cure her disease. She takes pictures with his old-fashioned film camera and listens to cassette tapes on a classic walkman as if longing for a long lost past. With her retro sensibility it might seem as if the (slightly) older Myint Myat is falling for the embodiment of her own frustrated youth and she does indeed seem to meditate on the things she lost along the way much as her architect husband gave up painting to work for the father she resents while she poured everything into her business. 

The film’s title takes itself from a shadow play Way Way acts out while the pair are holed up in a “haunted” house hoping to see a ghost. A wolf comes across a peacock and is jealous of its beautiful feathers. The wolf pounces, but the peacock flies away unfurling its beautiful plumage as it goes. Myint Myat wonders what happened to the wolf after that, but Way Way doesn’t have an answer for her. In some ways it’s difficult to define which of them might be the wolf and the other peacock for each of them begins to rediscover a sense of beauty in their unexpected connection even while the spectre of death hangs over them both. The film might in a sense answer the question of its title though only in the most melancholy of senses even as the two women transcend themselves as they make their way towards a place beyond the clouds.


What Happened to the Wolf? screens at BFI Southbank 24th April as part of this year’s Queer East.

Original trailer (English subtitles)

I Love You, Beksman (Mahal Kita, Beksman, Percival M. Intalan, 2022)

“What is the essence of being a real man?” The hero of Percival M. Intalan’s reverse coming out drama I Love You, Beksman (Mahal Kita, Beksman) finds himself questioning his own identity when confronted with the weight of social expectation and prejudice yet discovering that the question is meaningless when the key to happiness lies in self-acceptance and authenticity. Scripted by Fatrick Tabada (Chedeng and Apple), the film tears apart conventional notions of gender and sexuality in a hyper-masculine patriarchal culture while allowing its hero to gain the courage to define himself in order to chase his romantic destiny. 

Everyone just assumes flamboyant hairdresser Dali (Christian Bables) is gay. He dyes his hair red, dresses in a less masculine fashion than other men his age, and has an effeminate manner. Yet Dali has a secret he doesn’t even really realise is one in that he is actually straight as he is forced to reveal after falling for beauty queen Angel (Iana Bernardez) at a pageant. The more he tries to explain to people that he isn’t gay and is serious about romantically pursuing Angel, the less they seem to understand him. It simply doesn’t make sense that someone so “obviously” gay could be attracted to women. They ask him if he’s sure or if it might be a phase or if he’s developed some kind of internalised homophobia but never really consider that it’s a possible for a man to be both effeminate and exclusively attracted to women. 

Even Dali begins to subconsciously change himself in order to better conform to their expectations. Having lost her mother at a young age, Angel is surrounded by hyper-masculine men in her father and brothers who all rather hilariously have the same moustache and enjoy manly pursuits such as weightlifting and basketball. Dali, meanwhile, was surrounded by queerness all his life, raised in the salon by a father who now lives openly as a gay man in a platonic marriage with his mother. Despite having seemingly been very happy as a part of a big gay family who all just assumed him to be gay too, Dali begins to reject his father and his own femininity in believing that he must adopt a more stereotypical masculinity in order to convince Angel of his heterosexuality and eventually win her heart (along with those of her conservative father and brothers). 

It might be true to say that Dali’s original presentation as a flamboyant hairstylist and fashion designer is also a kind of performance and an attempt to conform to parental expectation just as his rejection of it is an attempt to conform to the demands of a hyper-masculine society, but only by embracing both extremes can he learn to define himself outside of the images others project onto him. In adopting the traits of traditional masculinity, he becomes boorish and insensitive asking his father to hide his “gayness” to avoid embarrassing him in front of Angel’s dad while later becoming jealous and violent after seeing Angel hanging out with an ex. He can’t see that his adopted persona makes it even harder to form a genuine romantic connection with Angel, not just because he’s actively erasing the sides of himself she first became attracted to in his skill in makeup and fashion but because as she eventually tells him it’s difficult to trust someone who is being dishonest with themselves. 

The realisation he comes to is that he has to be “himself” rather than being what other people expect him to be while those around him come to understand that outdated ideas of stereotypical gender presentation are harmful to everyone. A gentle tale of broadening horizons and mutual acceptance, Intalan’s ironic comedy neatly subverts the coming out trope while situating itself in a world of relative safety in which Dali is free to explore his own identity and means of self-expression encountering opposition only from those who fear he is not being true to himself. The reality may not be so kind as the classic rom-com conclusion may suggest but the film nevertheless neatly takes aim at the ridiculousness of conventional ideas of “masculinity” in a hyper-masculine and patriarchal culture in making a heartfelt advocation for the right to just be oneself.


I Love You, Beksman screens at the BFI Southbank on 18th April as the opening night gala of this year’s Queer East.

Original trailer (English subtitles)

Peafowl (공작새, Byun Sung-bin, 2022)

A trans woman begins to step into herself after reclaiming her traditional culture to make peace with the past in Byun Sung-bin’s poignant indie drama, Peafowl (공작새, Gongjaksae). At once situating itself in the heartland of a society struggling to adapt to the pace of change, the film suggests that only by reintegrating her Koreanness can the heroine become fully herself even as the spirit of the father who rejected her softly tells her to dance her dance.

Myung (Choi Hae-jun), whose name as she later says means “not too light not too dark”, is a trans woman living in Seoul hoping to earn a large amount of money to pay for her surgery through winning a waacking dance competition. Shortly before she performs, she receives an unsettling telephone call and narrowly loses the dance off against a Taiwanese competitor while a judge explains that she lacks a colour of her own. It’s then that a childhood friend, Woo-gi (Kim Woo-kyum), contacts her to let her know that her estranged father Duk-gil (Ki Joo-bong) has passed away and asks her to come to the funeral. Myung first says she won’t go, but later does only to be berated by her overbearing, conservative uncle who ironically causes a scene by loudly exclaiming that a man shouldn’t be going around with long hair or wearing makeup. He even introduces her as Duk-gil’s son to an older relative who is otherwise much more sympathetic and even asks her with surprise why she’s wearing a male mourning outfit rather than the more appropriate one for women. 

It’s the uncle, a symbol of oppressive middle-aged patriarchal power, that is the real problem. Most other people are either broadly supportive or too polite to say anything of Myung’s changed appearance while her teenage nephew Bo-suk (Go Jae-hyun) simply accepts her and quickly refers to Myung as “sis” despite his mother’s obvious discomfort. It is however the uncle who is in charge, continuing to misgender and insult Myung especially once Woo-gi reveals that it was Duk-gil’s dying wish for Myung to lead the funerary rites at his 49th day memorial service. Myung doesn’t really want to participate but is tempted after Woo-gi suggests there’s a sizeable inheritance to be had if she agrees. 

It’s clear that Myung had good reason to resent her father, holding up her hand and revealing a large burn scar she’s since had tattooed with with a beautiful peacock feather. The feather motif is repeated throughout as a kind of symbol of Myung’s hidden beauty which she will eventually learn to reveal through the fusion of the traditional art of shamanistic ritual and her contemporary waacker dance moves, yet it’s also linked to the image of her father as a man she never understood and may never have really known whose relationship with her was shaped by the legacy of homophobic prejudice in ways she could never have imagined. The truth that she discovers reminds her that there have always been people like her even within this very “traditional” society, while the twin revelation that her cousin is gay and struggling in many of the same ways she has proves there always will be. As Woo-gi reminds her, her grandfather’s tree looks like it’s dead but is kept alive by its connections with others much like people are, pointing out that rituals accept everyone without prejudice or exception. 

Only after making peace with her conflicted aunt and showing her overbearing uncle the error of his ways can Myung begin to reclaim herself in reintegrating her traditional culture to gain the colour she was lacking and become fully herself as she performs the ritual along with a waacker dance that quite literally sets fire to the oppressive quality of tradition as mediated by men like her uncle who weaponise it to preserve their own privilege. Shot in classic 4:3, Byun neatly contrasts the vibrancy of Seoul nightlife with the oppressive dullness of life in the village, but also highlights the various similarities in the colour and noise of a shamanistic ceremony which as Myung discovers moves to a beat not dissimilar to waacker as she watches her friends dance in a club with the movements of traditional shamanism. In a way, Myung does indeed burn it all down but does so positively, finally coming to an understanding of her father and her history while reclaiming her traditional culture along with the right to do with it whatever she wishes.


Peafowl screened as part of BFI Flare 2023. It will also be screening at Genesis Cinema, London on April 20 as part of this year’s Queer East.

Trailer (English subtitles)

Queer East Film Festival Reveals Full 2023 Programme

Queer East returns to cinemas across London 18th to 30th April with another handpicked selection of LGBTQ+ films from Asia. This year’s edition has a special focus on Korea including a series of films spanning from the 1960s to the present day and will also feature screenings of classics The Love Eterne and Rebels of the Neon God. Opening with Philippine comedy I Love You, Beksman, the festival will close with Home Ground, a documentary focussing on the first openly lesbian bar in Korea which opened in the 1990s.

Cambodia

  • Lotus Sports Club – documentary filmed over five years following a trans man in his 60s who formed a football team for LGBTQ+ youth.

China

  • Bad Women of China – He Xiaopei’s personal documentary explores the lives of Chinese women from the 1920s to the present day through the stories of herself, her mother, and her daughter.

Hong Kong

  • The Love Eterne – classic Mandarin-language Shaw Brothers musical directed by the legendary Li Han-Hsiang and starring Betty Loh Ti as a young woman who dresses as a boy in order to pursue education and meets a dashing scholar with whom she falls in love (Ivy Ling Po).

Japan

  • Let Me Hear It Barefoot – two alienated young men struggle to identify their feelings while searching for escape from moribund small-town Japan in Riho Kudo’s indie drama. Review.

Myanmar

Philippines

  • About Us But Not About Us – experimental mystery drama in which a student’s dinner with a professor takes an unexpected turn.
  • I Love You, Beksman – comedy starring Christian Bables (Big Night!) as a hairdresser everyone assumes to be gay until he falls for a beauty queen.

South Korea

  • Home Ground – documentary focussing on the first openly lesbian bar in Korea.
  • House of Hummingbird – coming of age drama set in 1994 in which a lonely teenage girl develops a fondness for her enigmatic Chinese teacher. Review.
  • King and the Clown – 2005 drama in which a pair of street performers become embroiled in dangerous intrigue. Screening on 35mm.
  • A Man and a Gisaeng – 1969 comedy in which an office worker is fired for being unmanly and finds a new line of work as a gisaeng only to be courted by the very boss who fired him.
  • Memento Mori – classic millennial horror in which a high school girl discovers a forbidden romance after reading a schoolmate’s diary.
  • Peafowl – drama following a trans woman who is tasked with performing the memorial dance at her estranged father’s funeral.
  • Sa Bangji – 1989 period drama in which an intersex person living in a temple draws dangerously close to a widow in mourning.
  • Stateless Things – festival favourite from 2011 following a North Korean refugee and a young gay man financially dependent on his older lover.

Taiwan

  • Rebels of the Neon God – classic from Tsai Ming-Liang following alienated teenager Hsiao Kang (Lee Kang-sheng) and petty delinquent Ah-Tze in a changing Taipei.

Shorts

In Between Seasons

  • Boy Queen (Dir. Sai Nyi Min Htut, Myanmar, Germany, 2021)
  • Seance of the Past (Dir. Adelaide Sherry, Singapore, 2022)
  • Truthless (Dir. Zhao Badou, China, 2021)
  • Memori Dia (Dir. Asarela Orchidia Dewi, Indonesia, Germany, 2022)
  • Tank Fairy (Dir. Erich Rettstadt, Taiwan, US, 2022)

All About My Mother

  • Will You Look at Me (Dir. Huang Shuli, China, 2022)
  • Skin Can Breathe (Dir. Chheangkea, US, Cambodia, 2022)
  • Fictions (Dir. Alice Charlie Liu, Canada, 2022)
  • Rising Sun (Dir. Cheng Ya-chih, Taiwan, 2018)
  • Fishbowl (Dir. Jacqueline Chan, US, 2021)
  • A Good Mother (Dir. Lee Yu-jin, South Korea, 2022)

A Kind of Queer Utopia

  • Strangers in Paradise (Dir. Huang Yihong, China, 2022)
  • Adju (Dir. Elvis A-Liang Lu, Taiwan, 2021)
  • Leo & Nymphia (Dir. Pan Hsin-An, Taiwan, 2021)
  • The Choir of our Kind (Dir. Xu Zai, Wang Sisi, China, 2021)

First Times

  • The Voice (Dir. Maral Ayurzana, Mongolia, 2022)
  • Swimming in the Dark (Dir. Chen Pin-Ru, Taiwan, 2022)
  • I get so sad sometimes (Dir. Trishtan Perez, Philippines, 2021)
  • Rooted (Dir. Wu Yi-Wei, Taiwan, 2022)
  • We Were Never Really Strangers (Dir. Patrick Pangan, Philippines, 2022)

Queer Korea: A Mixtape

  • Ice (Dir. Lee Seongpwook, South Korea, 2019)
  • Cicada (Dir. Yoon Dae-woen, South Korea, 2021)
  • Butch Up! (Dir. Lee Yu-jin, South Korea, 2022)
  • Don’t worry (Dir. Kim Tae-yong, South Korea, 2022)
  • How Do I Kill That B? – (Seo Ji-hwan, South Korea, 2022)

Dance Performances

Artists’ Moving Image Programmes

Alien Body, Human Dreams

  • to boyhood, i never knew him (Dir. Trâm Anh Nguyễn, Vietnam & Canada, 2022)
  • Longing for the Sun to Set Upwards (Dir. Jao San Pedro, Philippines, 2022)
  • Native beast (Dir. Aileen Ye, Netherlands, 2022)
  • Disease of Manifestation (Dir. Tzu An Wu, Taiwan, 2011)
  • Yummy Body Truck (Dir. Noam Youngrak Son, Netherlands, 2021)
  • BXBY (Dir. Soojin Chang, UK, 2022)
  • Garden Amidst the Flame (Natasha Tontey, Indonesia, 2022)

Wayward Fruits

  • Dikit (Dir. Gabriela Serrano, 2021)
  • out in the world (Dir. Bart Seng Wen Long, 2022)
  • Boy-Taste (Dir. Michio Okabe, 1973)
  • I shudder with pleasure that at last the time has come (Dir. Mari Terashima, 2022)
  • Sexy Sushi (Dir. Calleen Koh, 2021)
  • Super Taboo (Dir. Su Hui Yu, 2017)

Queer East runs 18th to 30th April at venues across Central London while a selection of films will also tour to venues around the UK in the autumn. Full details for all the films as well as ticketing links can be found on the official website, while you can also keep up with all the latest news by following Queer East on FacebookTwitterInstagram, and YouTube.