The heroine of Enen Yo’s Double Life (ダブル・ライフ) has a recurring dream of being trapped in an endless tunnel. No matter how long she walks, she can never see an exit, but she also claims that she is always awake to her true self. It is in a way her true self that seems to have gotten away from her as she struggles to overcome career disappointment and a moribund marriage to a passive aggressive salaryman who barely speaks to her and seems to resent her presence in his life.
After giving up her dance career following an injury, Shiori (Atsuko Kikuchi) has been working as an assistant to movement coach Kumiko whose practice is closer to performance art than contemporary dance. Shiori had wanted to take part in one of Kumiko’s “Communicating Love” couples sessions and though her husband Ryo had originally agreed he cancels at the last minute with an abrupt text message he refuses to explain over the phone. He refuses to explain at home too, later giving an excuse that would have seemed reasonable if he’d offered it in a less abrasive manner but given his behaviour makes him seem guilty and evasive. Smelling another woman’s perfume on his shirt only deepens Shiori’s suspicions that he’s been having an affair. It’s for these reasons that she takes up the recommendations of a friend, Misaki, to contact a man who rents himself out for role play assignments to pose as her husband so that she can participate in the workshop even without Ryo’s cooperation.
This might in someways seem perverse given that the workshop is about exploring intimacy as a couple, but as Kumiko explains it’s as much about coming to understand your own feelings as it is your partner’s. Shiori has in a sense hired Junnosuke to mirror her, conforming to her image of an idealised Ryo as the tender and loving husband he does not otherwise seem to be. Perhaps just incredibly good at his job, Junnosuke is a perfect fit for the exercise and is able to effectively pick up on Shiori’s buried anxieties echoing her dream of the tunnel but envisioning her as a beautiful butterfly dancing its way towards the exit. Shiori decides to hire him for an extended period and even rents a small flat to role play a happier marriage but also begins to lose sight of the boundaries of their “fake” relationship.
As Junnosuke says, once he’s in character it’s his lived “reality” until it’s not, but one also has to wonder what toll this lifestyle takes on the core “Junnosuke”, whether he can be said to exist at all and is able to have “authentic” personal relationships or whether not having them affects his life if he is able to derive emotional satisfaction through his various role playing activities. In any case as he later reminds Shiori he is a creature of her creation who only ever mirrored her desires and in doing so showed her who she is and what she wants along with the way out of the dark tunnel towards a more satisfying existence.
Kumiko, who is herself dealing with a sense of loss, tells her something similar in explaining that she must rediscover her centre of gravity which is also a means of spiritual reorientation in recalibrating herself to her present physicality and learning move in tune with the rhythms of the body she has now not the one she used to have before the injury which she must fully accept as a part of herself. It’s rediscovering her love of dance that grants her mastery over her body and soul and allows her to find a way through her despair in accepting that she must change to meet the new future rather than remaining trapped in a disatfying present defined by a longing for an immutable past.
Shot with a breezy poeticism that is at once lyrical and naturalistic, Yo’s gentle drama explores a process of healing conducted through theoretical role play that suggests that in certain cases literal authenticity is less important than the emotional in making an essential truth fully visible. In any case through living her “double life”, Shiori gains a new perspective on herself and others that finally allows her to see the light at the end of a tunnel she feared would never appear.
Double Life screens in Frankfurt 11th June as part of this year’s Nippon Connection.
International trailer (English subtitles)
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